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[28 Jul 2010|04:34pm] |
My birthday is in four days and unlike every other year I just feel so blah about all that.
What with being busy with my father's trial and the fact that I failed two of my NEWTS and now have no choice but return to Hogwarts I have had other things on my mind. My dad's trial ends tomorrow and I am really nervous and worried.
I am hoping for the best, but I just don't know any more.
I haven't properly smiled in months and I hate that. I miss being carefree and happy. I miss not feeling like shite on a daily basis and I HATE sounding like a depressed arse.
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[08 Jul 2010|02:42pm] |
Well, we finally know when my father's trial will be. We got the official owl from the Ministry today. It will be July 26-29, if any of my mates are interested in attending it.
Oh and we finally got permission to visit him in the holding cell he is in until his trial. I only got an hour, but it was nice getting to FINALLY see and touch him. I was trying my best not to cry. I have to be strong for him. My brothers took me out to lunch afterward in and attempt to make me feel a bit better. It didn't really help, but I appreciated it all the same.
I need to do something to keep my mind off of all that, this is where I turn to my trusted mates to pick up the slack. I know I can count on you!
18 days and counting.
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[26 Jun 2010|02:44pm] |
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How is everyone doing with their NEWTS? This has been a rough time for me, but at least I have studying to take my mind off my dad.
As far as my schedule goes, I am done with charms and transfiguration. Charms was not so bad, but I have no idea about transfiguration. It was never my strongest subject.
I have ancient runes and DADA Monday. One day at a time yeah?
[Private to her friends]
As the days in June tick and the month draws to a close, my father's trial is just that much closer. I have not been able to go visit him yet, but Mum and my brothers are trying their best to help make it happen. I have not seen him in so long, I just have his pictures right now.
I just hope for the best, but I just don't know. Everything looks so bleek. Mum has been talking to me about what would happen if father did get sent to Azkaban and I just hope it won't happen! As if I was not depressed enough, she has to go on and on about that sort of thing. It is as if she has given up hope already.
I hate seeing her so upset. She is supposed to be the strong one.
[End private]
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[17 Jun 2010|05:04pm] |
My month goes from bad to worse.
I hate this.
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[10 Jun 2010|02:59pm] |
[Hexed to friends only. Anyone else who tries to break this hex will get nasty boils appear all over their face.]
No! NO! NOOOO!
He was supposed to be safe. This was not supposed to happen to him!
HE DID NOT DO ANYTHING!!! I..I..I just do not what to do.
I HATE THIS MINISTRY! I HATE THE ORDER! I HATE EVERYONE RIGHT NOW!!!
[End hex]
I hate the Ministry with every fiber of my being!
You can all piss off for all I bloody care. FUCK YOU ALL!
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[01 Jun 2010|02:52pm] |
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The article in the Prophet proves what I have believed since the war was supposedly 'over'. The war is not totally over and we will probably continue to suffer losses and hardships for quite a while. No matter what side you are on, the next few months and years will be a bit rough as we slowly try to rebuild our lives.
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[25 May 2010|03:43pm] |
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[Hexed Private to Theodore Nott and Melinda Bobbin] I hate all this. The war is supposedly over. No more fighting and no more pain. That is what I keep hearing in the papers anyways. Just because the war is over does not mean that everything is all brill though.
I hate how hypocritical the other side is regarding how the Death Eaters and their followers treated other people, when they are not any better. My father is not and has never been a bloody death eater, but now he is gone for 'his own safety' since he is wanted for questioning and who knows what else.
I have not seen or heard from him since May 2nd and I miss him. I can not help but worry about him every minute of the day. I know he is not what other people say he is, but will the Ministry believe me? I won't hold my breath. [End Hex]
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